| hey you guys whats up....well im not gonna be able to get on for about another 4 months because i rele just messed up big time except this mess up could effect my life....it could rele effect my life big time..but i pray everyday that its not going to...but im just sooo scared and i wouldnt kno what to do if i didnt have Preston...but ne ways guys..for those of you that have my new cell #...i wont have it back for 4 months..but ne ways you can leave me messages on my cell and i can still check them but i just cant call back..but i will check my messages every night b4 i go to bad...but i got to go b4 i get caught on here...love you guys...especially Preston...*~Heather~* |
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| hey you guys....whats up...not much for me just being depressed....well i miss my baby alot and its killin me....and we r goin thru soooo much and then at the same time we have been gettin into alot of fights...and i dunno....im just havin this feeling that he likes some other chick but he dont want to tell me....i mean i trust him but you know how gurls are...but im just getting that feeling...but im scared that one day we r gonna get in a fight and hes just gonna break up with me cuz hes gonna get tired of fighting everyday....and im scared that he might be talking to some chick about his problems and then hes gonna fall in love with her...cuz thats exactly what happened with me and him....cuz wen i was goin out with my ex bf we would talk and then we started likin each other so i left my ex-bf and got with him....but i dunno...im just thinkin alot of crap....and im hoping that none of this shit is true...but i started getting the feeling like 2 days ago and then last night this chick IMed me on my sn and told me that he was cheating on me so then i started freakin out and i went on his sn to see if that same gurl that IMed me was on his buddy list and she was but then i told him what happened and he told me that he wasnt cheating on me or ne thing....but i still have that feeling...but imma be like that till the day we get married cuz then i will see him everyday...and right now i dont get to c him every day...but im just freakin ouit cuz i havent rele talked to him today and when i did he wasnt rele even talkin....but hopefully he never cheats on me but if he does i hope he would tell me cuz it will hurt me alot worse if he waits a while and then tells me...but im just scared cuz one thing that were going thru right now is rele scary and yesterday wen i was talking to him he said something and i misunderstood him and i just told him that i had to go and then i text messaged him and i asked him a question and i was rele pissed off and i was about to break up with him but i asked him another question and what his response was to that question was gonna tell me to stay with him or to break up with him....but we r still together and today is 3 months.....but like i said i just get that feeling....but i dont want it to come true..cuz i love him...no matter how big of a fight we get at him or how mad i get at him or how mad he gets at me i always love him...i always...but i want to be with him forever but now that i have this feeling and if its right i dunno if its gonna happen...at that kills me too ...i cried myself to sleep last night cuz i was having the feeling the strongest that i have ever had it last night....but yeah i got to go guys ill ttyl..... |
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| why does everything that i think is good in my life have to go bad....me and preston r rele starting to have problems now and im not likin it at all ....i mean i want to be with him forever...but its like....uhhh.... nevermind...i got to go....ill talk yo you guys later..
do you ever get the feeling that no matter what you do its never good enough..... |
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| I miss my baby...i miss his smile...god gave me my angel when i found him.... |
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